Searching for life in an endless sea of direction.

Hello again,

I hope today finds you well. I have had a regular morning. Got to bed late last night and almost overslept. Things are moving right along. Church last night was really good as we finished a study of the 10 commandments. The teacher is an old country man who has no formal education but he has a wonderful understanding of the Bible. I think I can learn a lot from this fellow. Even though I have preached for over 20 years, the Bible has not changed and I am not too old to learn from others. As I stated in an earlier entry, my life has really went through the ringer the last three years. My faith has been challenged in many different ways. I have done things I thought I would never do. Let's just say I became involved in a life that was not me. It rubbed against every grain of righteousness that had been instilled in my heart. However, today is a new day and God is still on the thrown. I love the scripture where He tells us that He holds us in the palm of his hand. I am very thankful of that. I seem to live life so indecisive now. I have often looked back on decisions made and think to myself, "who the heck is that guy?" I often refer to my life as a guy that I have counseled through the years and every now and then I think back and wonder how he is doing. I want so badly to resume a regular life with little stress and easier decisions. Does anyone really live a life like that? Our life is spent searching for who we really are and what our true purpose is. Some find their path quickly and others find it later. However, when we find our path the search is not over. We must walk the path with integrity of the heart and not the weakness of the flesh. That has been my problem. Weakness of the flesh has sometimes overtaken me on my search for who I am and who God wants me to be. I have a deep desire to live, love and laugh. I thought I had found it once but the devil somehow got in and I allowed him to destroy my plans and my life. However, God has been patient and moving in my life all along. Searching for life in an endless sea of direction. There are many choices. I want to make the right ones and allow God to bless with His movement.

Take Care.

My son and choices.......they both worry me.

Hello folks,

I hope all of you are well. I am sitting in my office contemplating my life and the messes that I often encounter due to my stupidity. However, today I am thinking of my son. My son told me a few years ago that he is gay. Let me set the stage for this. I am a conservative Baptist preacher that has preached the old fashion way for over twenty years. However, in the last few years, life has dealt me some serious blows that has forced me to rethink the ultra conservative approach. Things such as my own divorce, falling into a life I never dreamed of, finding and losing love and a major job change. However, one of these things is the fact that my son is gay. He says he feels like he was born to be gay. I have a problem embracing that issue. But, I do know that babies are born with emotional deficiencies and other life-long issues to deal with. Why can't gay people be the same? Paul says that we all have a thorn in our flesh and we all certainly have a cross to bear. God ensures us that through every trial, temptation or obstacle He will make a way out. Our sexuality is a deep, private and awkward situation. But my mind wonders if our sexuality and the choice therof will send us to hell. I have to go for now but please share your thoughts.

The first word.

Hey folks.

Welcome to my blog. I wanted to create this blog to talk about many different issues in my life and the world around us. I am not an old man but I have lived a lot of life. I am still in the molding process and God is definitely working hard to make me the man he wants me to be. Trouble is.....I am so resistant. So, fasten your seat belt and join me in this blog. I will not edit out any comments as long as they don't cuss or take God's name in vain. I want to hear your feedback on all my crazy thoughts and steps in life. I look forward to hearing from you.